Frustration Station

bathroom-scaleYesterday marked week number 3 without a cigarette. I celebrated the Super Bowl with a glass of wine but until yesterday, I had been 3 weeks without booze as well. 3 weeks of eating right and exercise. 3 weeks of honest work to become a better me. 3 weeks feels like forever. Or at least long enough to make a difference. Except, I don’t feel like I’ve made a difference at all. I still look just as fat as I did when I started.

As with anything, it’s frustrating to work hard and not see results.

My cigarette cravings are definitely less. The rage blackouts have decreased exponentially. My energy is up! Hangovers gone! But getting nowhere fast is making me want to give it all up.

I’m not going to give up. But today, I want to. The lack of progress is making me cranky. Almost as cranky as the snow. Being trapped inside all the time is definitely not helping my cause. I am getting bored with workout DVDs and I’m just not sure how to work any harder without giving up even more small pleasures.

Gotta find something to help me over this grumpy hump!

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Day 10

treadmillNow that I have decided to quitting smoking, I think about smoking a lot more than when I was actually smoking. I was thinking earlier today about something specific. Throughout adulthood, when I have been stressed or anxious or hyper, my strategy has always been to take a cup of coffee or glass of wine out on the deck with a cigarette and just wait as the whole world slowed down, one drag at a time.

It’s time to find a new strategy.

salad tweetSince I started quitting (does that even make sense?) I have also been trying to eat better and exercise more. It seems stupid to go half assed. So far, it’s going pretty good. I’m not following any specific diet. That shit doesn’t work for me. I am cutting out the bad, cutting down on the total and adding in a lot more good. I just really don’t want to create some obsession with food or counting or weighing. I’m obsessed with enough things (looking at you Prince Patrice). I only want to be better and feel better. I always think about that quote from Kate Moss about no food tasting as good as skinny feels. I’m not so sure about that. I’ve had a few steaks that felt pretty great. But feeling better about myself would taste pretty damn good.

Bangarang_coverThe working out is also going well. I like this as my new coping strategy, whenever possible. It is starting to feel good to run until my lungs burn. I’m enjoying feeling soreness in my muscles. The only thing I worry about is listening to too much Skrillex. I have been to the gym 6 out of the 10 days and I would like to add some Yoga/Pilates in at home as well. As with the food, I’m not following anything too strictly. I am setting small goals and then more small goals once the first are met. We’ll see how it goes!

Can anyone recommend stress strategies when jogging or lifting is not an option? It would be helpful to have as many tools as possible.

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The Stress of being a Quitter

Day 9.

beerandcigs-thumb-254x267-143924As of today it has been 9 days since my last cigarette. 9 days since my last cocktail. Not that I’m trying to quit drinking forever, but I just know that after even one glass of wine I’m going to want to light up. And since I’m trying to get into a shape that isn’t round, I’d honestly rather get any extra cheat calories from cheese.

Quitting two of my favorite things (3 if you count cheese fries) at the same time seemed really scary at first but it hasn’t been impossible. Yet. I have definitely had moments where I want to crawl out of my skin. Moments when I feel a rage blackout is eminent. But I am sticking to it!! If I can make it through a couple of big tests coming up, I know I’ll be able to make it stick.

Since I’m the Queen of stressing out over sports, tonight will not be an easy one to get through vice free. Watching my favorite team vs. my favorite player (who never should have been traded) is always hard for me. And on Friday I will be at Garth Brooks with the bestest BFF to party it up until the wee hours. I’m not sure I’ve ever been to the Garden without ordering a beer.

I can do it. Watch the game from hell. Attend a girls night out.

Wish me luck!!

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Hockey Questions with Shawn Hutcheon

Bergy & tuukkaI can’t remember exactly which of Shawn Hutcheon’s brilliant articles made me decide to follow him on twitter but I do know that we became friends when he was live tweeting Rocky one night while I was watching Rocky IV. Anyone who loves the Rocky movies as much as I do is A+ in my book. He also writes incredibly insightful articles about hockey for The Fourth Period and is willing to chat Bruins with me all hours of the night. If you are not following him on twitter right now, you should fix that. And read his wonderful answers to my questions.

Is there anything you are really missing about not being in Sochi?

I wish I could cover the hockey games at Sochi. I would love to be around the best the world has to offer not to mention the atmosphere. My dad took me to the Summer Games in Montreal in 1976. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life.

Is there one NHL player that will benefit the most from an Olympic win?

It’s hard to say which player will benefit the most from a gold medal until we know which team wins it. If a Bruin does win a gold, he’ll bring a lot of confidence home with him, as well as the medal.

I have mixed feelings about Bruins winning and losing in Sochi. Are there any you hope will win?

I’m not rooting for any one specific Bruin. They’re all great guys. I wish all of them could bring back a medal.

Any you think will benefit from a loss?

The most important thing about losing is that you learn from it. Whoever does not win a medal will know what not to do when trying to win in any situation.

What is your favorite part of writing about sports?

I like everything about sports writing from meeting great colleagues who have become friends to meeting and talking with the employees of all the NHL teams and of course, talking with the players. I will say, every time I walk into an NHL team’s dressing room, it’s a pinch me moment.

Who is the best interview you’ve ever had?

The best interview I’ve conducted didn’t involve an athlete. It was with Roseann Sdroia, who lost her left leg in the Boston Marathon bombing. Her resolve and spirit was incredibly inspirational. She’s a very special person and is winning her fight to get her life back…Because I’ve never had a negative experience with any NHL player, I don’t think I can say I had a “best” interview with any one of them. A couple that stand out was Shawn Thornton before they played against Vancouver for the first time after winning the Stanley Cup. The other was with Ben Lovejoy of the Anaheim Ducks when they were in Boston this year. I coached him when he was 12 and 13 years old and it’s awesome to see him playing in the NHL. I also coached Brian Boyle of the New York Rangers. He and Lovejoy played together on the teams I coached..I think the most fun interview was with Brad Marchand earlier this year. What you see, is what you get and he’s one of the funniest persons you could ever meet.

What is the craziest experience you have had as a sports writer?

The craziest experience I’ve had as a sports writer came immediately after the Blackhawks won the Stanley Cup at TD Garden last year. I was on the ice about to interview Patrick Kane when actor Jim Belushi came out of nowhere (I didn’t even know he was in the building) to grab Kane and give him a huge hug. I was thinking where did he come from then it hit me to take a pic with my cell phone, which I did and it came out pretty good.

What is the piece you’ve written that has meant the most to you?

The piece that has meant the most to me was one that I wrote last year. The Middlesex Islanders Junior Hockey Club’s coach is a friend of the parents of the late Avalanna Routh, the 6-year-old girl who became known around the world as Mrs. Bieber because she became friends with Justin Bieber, two days after she passed away from brain cancer, the coach told me about how his players spent many hours visiting her while she was in the hospital. She even had her own team jersey she would wear while they played and would wait for his phone call to tell her the games results. After he told me the whole story, I wrote about it and a few days later, he called me to tell me that everyone who read it was so touched by it that they cried. I didn’t write it for that. I wrote it because everyone has a story and although, everyone knew her’s, I felt there was more to it and that’s what I wrote. This is the piece…

Which hockey team is your pick to win the Olympics?

My pick to win Olympic gold has been, and continues to be, Sweden. Their skill level and goaltending is off the charts.

In a dream world, is there one player that the Bruins lost in the off season that you would want back, for the purpose of winning the Cup?

In a dream world, the player I would like to see return to Boston is Jaromir Jagr. He’s a future Hall of Famer and had a huge influence in the dressing room. The players really liked and respected him. He was always fun to speak with. On the ice, he could do pretty much whatever he wanted with the puck. His hockey IQ is one of the best I’ve ever seen. There aren’t many better at setting up teammates for scoring chances than Jagr.

Who is the biggest dark horse in this year’s Bruins team that may help us make it through the playoffs?

The biggest “dark horse” on the Bruins, good question. I think it could be Kevan Miller. He’s paid his dues with four years in the minors and is ready to assume an important role on the the team’s blue line. Not to mention, management and the coaching staff have a lot of confidence in him.

Who is your Bruins MVP for the season so far? And do you think that may change before the season is over?

Up to this point, my Bruins MVP is David Krejci. He is so good and so smooth that there are times when you don’t notice he’s on the ice then all of a sudden the puck is on his stick and in the net. He’s one of the best pure skaters in the league and is so smart with the puck. He’s a great defensive player, who is rarely out of position. Put it all together and you have a player who leads the team in scoring and is recognized around the NHL as one of top 5 centers in the league. I don’t expect that to change but any team that has Patrice Bergeron on it has another MVP year in and year out.

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Hockey Questions with Michael Hurley

12-27-13The Boston Bruins are on their Olympic break,  And, while our favorite players are in Sochi or the Dominican Republic, I am seizing the opportunity to ask a few of my favorite Bruins writers to answer some questions for me.
My first interview is with Michael Hurley from CBS Boston Sports, 98.5 The Sports Hub & WBZ-TV. I first fell for his hilarity last year while reading his “Leftover Bruins Thoughts’ during the playoffs. Something I looked forward to after every game.  Not only is he a huge Anton Khudobin fan, but he is always insightful, always funny. Definitely follow him on twitter: @michaelFhurley. There is a good chance he will make your day. OR, if you leave him a ridiculous comment, there is a good chance we will laugh about you all day long.
What photo makes you most excited to not be in Sochi?
Oh my God, definitely the double toilet picture. I mean, we are human beings here, and there are lines and boundaries we must respect in order for society to function peacefully. That’s just … nasty.

A close runner-up would be the yellow water from the reporter who said her hotel’s front desk advised her not to put any of the water on her face “because it contains something very dangerous.” That’s slightly concerning.

Of all the recent Boston Championships, during which one did you let GO the most?

I don’t know if it counts as recent anymore, but the only one that would qualify would be the ’04 Red Sox. I was still young, and that was a week-long stretch that was a whole lot of fun.

What is your favorite part of writing about sports?

The part I always appreciate and never take for granted is that I have the unique opportunity to have a platform and a microphone to express any opinion and make any case I want. That doesn’t mean I always think I’m right, but I appreciate that I can say something that can start a discussion or debate. So long as that debate doesn’t involve someone relentlessly hurling curse words at me, it’s usually a solid experience.

Who is the best interview you’ve ever had?

Well, I’m a little biased on this one, just because I liked the guy so much, but I’m going to have to go with Anton Khudobin. The guy was hilarious, and I think he knew it. He was like a less-crazy but just-as-entertaining version of Iilya Bryzgalov, except he could actually stop pucks, too. Every time I got to the Garden and saw Khudobin lead the team out of the tunnel, I got excited, because I knew it meant there would be a chat with Anton on tap for after the game.

I remember talking to him after he made 45 saves in a win against Ottawa on a night when Robin Lehner made 47 saves in a losing effort for the Senators. I informed Khudobin that it was a career high for him, and he wasn’t aware. He said he was just hoping that both goalies could get 50 saves, because that would have been entertaining to him. That’s what he was thinking about during a game in which he was asked to make 45 saves.

I miss Anton.

What is the craziest experience you have had as a sports writer?

I’m not sure “crazy” could ever be the right word to describe anything that takes place during my job, but I have been able to witness more amazing sports moments than I ever could have imagined. I was at Gillette this year when Tom Brady led the Patriots to a last-second win over the Saints, and I listened to the radio on the way home as David Ortiz cranked the game-tying grand slam in Game 2 of the ALCS. The next weekend, I was at Fenway when the Red Sox finished off the Tigers, and a week and a half after that, I was there to see the Red Sox win the World Series.

I have to say, I never really anticipated ever being at Fenway to witness the Sox winning it all, and being there for that postseason run was certainly one of the craziest experiences I’ve had.

What is the piece you’ve written that has meant the most to you?

That’s a good question. I think it might be the recap I wrote after the Bruins’ comeback victory in Game 7 against Toronto last year — . It was just such an incredible moment, and I know that I’ll never witness anything like that again.

I remember that for whatever reason, I started writing that one on my phone. I think I was in the hallway waiting for the locker room to open to the media, and I was trying to figure out a way to put that experience into words, so I just started tapping away.

To be honest, it’s pretty rare for me to write a story and think afterwards, “Hey, I feel good about that one.” So that Game 7 story stands out in my mind as one I feel good about.

Which hockey team do you pick to win the Olympics?

I think the most obvious answer is Canada, but I would have some concerns about goaltending if I were from the Great White North. Carey Price falling on his face wouldn’t totally stun me, and I think the 2010 team won despite Roberto Luongo. So I think that might get in the way of another gold for Canada.

I think Sweden might be the next best team in the tournament, in large part due to Henrik Lundqvist. A handful of the players were on that gold-winning team in ’06, and the Swedes are my pick this time around.

At the same time, I’m not ruling out the Russians getting some favorable calls. I’d never put anything past Putin.

Who is your pick to win the Stanley Cup?

I really feel like Pittsburgh is overdue, but I just can’t pick them to win four playoff series with Marc-Andre Fleury in net. I know it’s happened once before, but I just don’t see it happening again.

The Bruins should be right there again, but based on how difficult it is to go on long playoff runs in consecutive seasons, I’ll go with Anaheim. Not exactly the boldest pick, I know, but they’re just such a solid team.

Is there one NHL player that will benefit the most from an Olympic win?

I think it’s unlikely that Ryan Miller gets the opportunity to play for USA again, but let’s say he does, and let’s say he magically pulls off another run like he had in 2010. If he can put the team on his back and lead them all the way to gold, he’ll make himself the biggest name at the trade deadline and he’ll stand to make a whole lot more money in free agency this summer.

It’s unlikely, but hey, you never know.

One NHL player that will benefit the most from an Olympic loss?

Maybe an early exit for Slovakia wouldn’t be the worst thing for Zdeno Chara. The man needs rest.

Which Boston team will be the next to give us a reason to get drunk?

If you drink enough at a Celtics game, it might actually start to look like a good game.

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Denver Broncos – Military Salute! (My sister was there!)

For this week’s Denver Bronco’s game, my sister Stacey got to take part in the half time Military Salute, taking the field at half time! VERY exciting!! So proud of her!!

Here are some pictures/vids from Stacey and from my friend Jamie who was at the game! So upset that NBC didn’t show the tribute during half time!! These Men and Women of the US Military have definitely earned a little prime time love.

Enjoy these views!! (click to watch the vid!)














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Tyler Seguin is Such a Jerk

Here’s the thing.

I get that Tyler Seguin has a reputation for being a hard partying douche bag. A waste of a draft pick and a loser. Fine.

Every douche I know is upset when he scores his 4th goal of the game, wishing he could have given it to one of his teammates.

Ass holes always refuse to celebrate a 7th team goal. Because it’s not the right thing to do.

Dallas Ty Super jerks are all about starting a foundation to raise money and awareness for an affliction that has overcome their best childhood friend. Those kind always put their time, money and heart into something that means nothing to them. Buying suites, signing stuff, taking pics, spending time…. What an ass hole.

It’s usually the SUPER fuck ups that get 12 goals and 10 assists in their first 19 games with a new team.

And with their former team, 2nd overall in points was  HORRIBLE. Obviously.

And even after being drug through the mud and trash talked to no end, it’s the REAL jerks who continue to say wonderful things about their former team, their former city, their fans and all of the memories they made there.

Remember that time in Tyler Leather smallTampa when Seguin actually SAVED our entire playoffs? Oh yeah, we won a cup that year. Oh yeah, fuck that guy. Boo him off the ice. Piece of shit.

You guys are right, what an ass hole. How did I not see it before????

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